yuck

By Posted in - general & random on October 29th, 2013 8 Comments

I’m finding out that I can sometimes be a pretty petty person.  This is a devastating thing to know about yourself.

I don’t tolerate pettiness well in other people; in fact, it is a personal pet-peeve.  Pettiness feels a little overly-dramatic and small-picture to me.  Being around a petty person feels negative and kind of makes the petty person sound spoiled and ungrateful.  So you can imagine my disdain to hear, in my own voice and life, a little bit of pettiness coming through.

YUCK.

 

In just the last couple of weeks, I have witnessed huge and scary things in people’s lives.  I heard the miraculous news that a bus full of kiddos (including my nephew and his Daddy) was struck by an 18-wheeler, and by the grace of God, everyone lived and most walked away with only a few scratches and bruises.  I watched a dear friend of mine face a terrible medical scare with her darling 4 year old son (don’t tell anyone, but I love this kid) and we will all be chained to our phones this week as we wait for more test results.  I prayed alongside some incredible ladies for a sweet girl from our office who sits in the hospital day after day and hour after hour (all hooked up to a bunch of monitors) doing her best to toast up the precious twin baby-girl-muffins in her tummy, just as fast as she can, before it gets too dangerous for them to be in there together anymore.  I read through our prayer chain and my heart broke for all those hurting people; at all the pain and cancer eating away at our congregation and those they love.  And tomorrow I will cry and cry some more and join probably half the zip code as we gather together at a funeral to mourn the loss of a friend/mentor that finally slipped away after a good long life of loving the unlovables like me.

All this has happened and will continue to happen, because the weeks seem endlessly full of big things that need big prayers and a big, big God.    And I will genuinely care about those things and witness those events with compassion in my heart.  But then, because I can sometimes be a pretty petty person, all of that will vanish instantly from my mind for a moment when something really earth-shattering happens, like being told that I can’t have the kitchen backsplash I want.

YUCK.

 

Life is so much bigger than this small little thumbnail lens I view it through sometimes.  It is crazy bigger than stupid things like tile prices or paint colors or kitchen backsplashes (but in my defense, it HAS to be this perfect vintage-meets-contemporary material, it just HAS to….) My finish selections are so tee-tiny on the totem pole of priorities in comparison to some of the things people I love are facing this day, this week, this month.  And the little house on Larkhall Drive will have absolutely nothing on the mansion in eternity I get to live in.  Yet, even knowing all of this, I will have the audacity to freak out over something so insignificant as a tile pattern or lighting.  Talk about sounding spoiled and ungrateful.

YUCK. YUCK. YUCK.

 

I so know better.  I know that life – that GOD – is so much bigger than these tiny things.  In fact, He is so much bigger than we could ever know or see or touch or grasp or begin to understand this side of heaven.  He is big enough to have a personal relationship with each and every one of us, all while simultaneously performing miracles and running the world.

When I spend my time thinking about and being amazed at how big God is, it shrinks me and my dumb little problems down to the grain-of-sand size we should be.  And small is good for me because small is the antagonist to petty.  It is only when I get smaller in my world that I can allow the space for GOD to be the big thing in my day and in my life.

So this week, I am going to try to really focus on the goodness and graciousness and great big-ness of God.  I am going to choose to not spin off about those tiny stupid things and instead care about the big things and the good people He has placed in my life.  I will choose to see his miracles and wonders and blessings all around me.  And I will try my best to be big-picture and big-hearted and full of the things that really matter.

The hugeness of God is incomprehensible. I hope I spend the rest of my life in awe of that.  And when I spend just a millisecond thinking about it, I am so grateful that in all his vastness and powerfulness, He still sent His Son to save the little bitty petty people; the overly dramatic, small-picture, spoiled, and ungrateful folks…           like me.

YAY!

 

verse:

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts.  Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

~ Psalm 139:23-24 (NLT)

 

share:

do you find yourself forgetting the big picture from time to time? what insignificant things set you off and what eternal consequences might that have?  what do you do to keep yourself focused on the things that really matter? 

 

Comments

  • Bertina Schreiber - Reply

    October 29, 2013 at 8:00 am

    Christine hits the nail on this one, as she usually does. Something we can all identify with.

  • Becky - Reply

    October 29, 2013 at 10:32 am

    Awesome! I really, really needed to hear that at this very moment.

    Love, Becky

  • Dana - Reply

    October 29, 2013 at 10:47 am

    Incomprehensible is exactly what God is! I recently obsessed over baseboards and felt really guilty days later. On my way home in traffic thinking about every one I see coming and going and thinking that God is watching over each and every one of us, not just here, but all over this planet – no words! My brain isn’t big enough to think like that – but my heart feels His love and I believe!

  • Julie - Reply

    October 29, 2013 at 12:57 pm

    Thank you Christine. Your honesty opens up my mind and shines the light on the truth of how quickly I can go from being focused on God and all his goodness to becoming frustrated and angry about the person in traffic who sat through the light and how important that is (not). This week (and all weeks) has/have been full of prayer concerns that are overwhelming…i have to remember: “praise God'” and not just “help me God!”- there are so many reasons to praise Him yet I so easily forget in a split second and move away. I will use “Praise God” more this week…maybe that will help! After all He makes perfect backsplashes too right?

  • Felicia - Reply

    October 29, 2013 at 6:03 pm

    God knows what you need- building a house is an emotional experience- window to your soul. You may think that everything will fall apart if your perfect picture doesn’t come within budget but I know (from lots of experience) that NO ONE worries about the backsplash tile when the moving truck starts unloading:) Just know this- it will all work out- God has a plan:) xoxoxo

  • Ginger Z - Reply

    October 29, 2013 at 10:03 pm

    Christine – Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I needed to hear this truth to shift my own focus.

  • Cindi Leech - Reply

    October 30, 2013 at 5:25 pm

    Christine,
    Thank you so much for reminding us that life goes on and means so much more that the little things. I have been spoiled and find myself being petty also,
    Great post,

  • Linnea Falk - Reply

    November 2, 2013 at 11:02 am

    Well said, we all need to be reminded that God’s Love and Grace is ALL that matters!!!! We are so blessed to walk this earth knowing we have him in our corner ALL the time. No matter what we are dealing with small or major, he has us in his palm.

    PS, that little kid loves his Kisstine too!!!

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